God is so humorous…God is so good
I love God.
He’s so…teasing, but I love God. He’s amazing.
Just had to let that out. Will elaborate more later (hopefully) if I ever find the time.
My heart is bursting for God.
I am so thankful.
I am in love.
It’s really confusing.
It’s really weird.
maybe, just maybe, if I purposely hurt myself over and over again, one day i’ll stop hurting. maybe one day i’ll get used to it and stop feeling. then maybe it won’t be so bad anymore. maybe then it won’t hurt so much anymore.
songs on my tumblr
(For the person who requested my song titles, I’ll fill in number 1&2 later! I have to look for them haha)
3. 나비-사랑은 너인것 같아
4. Jamie Grace- Hold me
5. 이소라-Track 3
7.노리플라이-낡은 배낭을 매고
8. 메이트-너에게 기대
10.Megan Lee- Live Laugh Love
11.Royal Tailor-Hold me together
12.루싸이트 토끼-두근 두근
14.아마도 별 (feat. Ali)
15.Laura Story- Blessings
16.NewWorldSon- There is a Way
17. Narsha-I’m in love
18. Ra.D-I’m in love
The day when I thought that God’s trial couldn’t get more intense, He proved me wrong.
The day when I confirmed that I’m allergic to my own tears.
Still I praise you God.
Anonymous asked: I like your taste in music! Could you possibly list the song titles for all 18 of them on your blog?
Sorry it took so long to reply, but I’ll try to do it as soon as possible! :)
A post from Nov 7th I never really posted…
So, despite all that I had to do, despite the lack of sleep I had, despite the fact I had a test the next day which I wasn’t quite ready for, I decided to go to Jimmy Needham/AMP concert on Monday…
The world may have viewed my actions as being foolish & uncircumspect (I, myself had doubts as well if it was a wise decision on my part), but God is ALWAYS faithful (like ALWAYS! oh, how I wish I could say the same for myself & my own humankind)
But I am so so so SO glad I went, for He spoke to me so much through the concert, and even if I do get a “B” on one test, the message I got from God was and is and forever will be worth much much more than a mere grade that does not define who I am. It is so easy for me, as an Asian American student, to place studying above God—to the point of idolatry. The scary part is that it’s so subtle because I believe that it’s my duty as a student to honor God with my studies, but there is a fine, very defined line, between studying for God’s glory & studying for my own ambitious desires while using God as an excuse. So be careful guys—because we may all think that we aren’t, in the very process of we are.
Anyways the concert was purely amazing, even breath-taking in some moments, because as the artists testified of God’s love and grace through their music, I think everyone in the room could relate in some way. But the most memorable thing about the concert was this:
Jimmy was talking about the Old Testament, and how the Israelites, God’s chosen people, were complaining (about literally everything) even after they had seen God’s amazing power to part the Red Sea, showering of manna, etc. And God’s chosen people, even after they landed into the Promised Land, kept on complaining (ie.wanting a King) and started worshiping other gods, indulged in sexual immorality, murdered, stole, lied…just every possible sin known to man basically, and God just summed it up in two sins (how amazing is that in itself! lol):
Jeremiah 2:13 “My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water.
The first is pretty self-explanatory, but the second—it’s what blew Jimmy away & what blew me away as well… God could have pointed out so many different sins that Israel had committed (because there was just so many!) but He summed it up into one: that Israel had not drunk enough of God.
That they have created their own cisterns “that cannot hold water”
[Note: Jesus, in the NT identifies himself as the “living water” to the Samaritan woman and says that whoever drinks of Him shall not thirst (John 4)]
What this means is that if you focus on God, and DRINK of Him, all of the emptiness you may feel in your heart will be filled by GOD, and all the appetizing things that the world may seem to offer will seem so trivial, so meaningless. The cisterns we create for ourselves—our ambitions, career aspirations, worries, desires to impress, to fit in—how we tell ourselves that if we “get into this program or college” or “get this job,” that we will be happy, but in reality if we are not drinking of God, we won’t truly be happy because these are just broken cisterns that cannot hold water!!
And this was just SO PERFECT for me (even as I’m writing this down I’m realizing how perfect it is!) because lately I have been struggling with emptiness and loneliness in my heart…all derived from the world.
Why do you show me all the hurt in this world?
You let me feel your heart—how yours break for these people who are hurting.
You open my eyes so the masks they are gripping for all their worth is only a thin, transparent shield.
Their smiles betray the bloodshed in their hearts. why, Yahweh, why
But if I must be your messenger to these people, I ask that you give me love, love that overcomes all imperfections that I, as a human being, may possess.
Let love be above the judgment, pride, and insecurity that may be in my soul.
Let love be the refuge where they can rest, rest from the world and rest in you
These days I’ve been calling into question many things in life..
about the life God has given me…whether i am worthy of His calling…
it’s so easy to fall into the worldly desires and temptations that lure me in…do i have the strength to prevail, the strength to stand firm, the strength to be a living light that shines God in this dark world?
College life, the “busy”ness of it all, the life in which I cannot even admire the simple beauty of nature just for the sake of trivial happiness and delight…
it makes me wonder…about His perfect plan
and my sinful, imperfect nature.
Georgetown doesn’t sleep…
I just came back from my 24-hour library because my roomie wanted to sleep…it’s 5:05 a.m., but when I left there were still so many people up & studying furiously….
WHY DON’T PEOPLE SLEEP HERE?
I mean, I have nothing to say because I’m in my dorm’s study-room finishing up my paper due in couple of hours…but still……
I’m like in awe/shock of this 독한 student population